8 May 2016, Sunday

Happy mother's day to me..not in a mood to celeb8 it. Today just a hectic & tiring day. Kids energy are so hard to catch up, m mentally exhausted.

As promised everyday to myself, i did swore not to shout or get angry at them, however i juz couldnt keep it, huhu.. if i could be more patient, huhu..

Hope they understand about it one day - mmy do love u all, with all my heart & soul..i love u..

******

Mandi lewat mlm, Hanis waited for me while doin her colouring..

MyHanis : Mmy, mmy bagila upah kat Hanis..
Mmy: Erk, nape?
MyHanis  : Hanis kan teman mmy..
Mmy: Amboii, teman pon kena upah ke? Hanis nk buat apa ngn duit tu?
MyHanis : Hanis nk masuk kat tabung Hanis..
Mmy: Mana tabung Hanis?
MyHanis  : adaa, kat bilik..

I just smile & saw on the table ada balance 50sen baki beli domino tghari td & i gave to her. She run happily shouting tq mmy & went to the room lookin for her tabung..haha, This girl always make my heart melting. She got her own ways in making me smile..Nanti bile Hanis byk duit jgn lupa mmy k ;)


Then, Haikal Hans shouting from upstairs,

MyHans : Mmy lambat lagi ke nak naik?
Mmy : AAhh
MyHaikal : Mmy tugu ddy ker?
Mmy : AAhh, nape?
MyHans : adalah kitaorg nk buat surprise kat mmy..

haha..bocor rahsia..but i just pretended that i know nothin :)
adalah la tu projek dorg kat atas tu..
Haikal dah byk hari sembunyikan sesuatu, one morning i woke up, turun bwh, then tgk dia panik mcm sembunyikan sesuatu, i asked him, buat apa? main tab, then i said, tab ada sini awak kat situ?? (dia kat meja, tab kat sofa) takk, td haikal main tab jap, pastu haikal bgn..hahaha..whatever la anak, i know u hiding somethin, coz u r myson & i know reason y :)..sbb my birthday & mother's day dah dekat..so i cont. xtahu apa2..hahaha..

Throwback

Me + Kids = Us Forever n ever.. 😘

Closing Nov 2014

Tuhanku..
Berikanku kekuatan utk menempuhi dugaan ini,
Walaupun berat hati utk menerimanya namun ku gagahi jua dgn zikir n doa,
Walaupun hati sakit,
Walaupun hati sedih,
Sukar utk memaafkannya, ku terpaksa merelakan demi anak-anak,
Aku berharap, aku mudah lupa,
Aku berharap, semua kenangan pahit ini lenyap,
Aku berharap, utk tidak mengingatinya..

Senyuman hari ini blum pasti buat hati gembia,
Gembira ini sebenarnya duka,
Duka yg terpaksa aku selaputkan dgn nada bahgia, kerana hidup ini sementara,
Dan anak2 perlukan kebahgiaan ini,
Yang pasti n hakiki, ini demi anak2,
Bukan utk diriku, kerna hati sudah tercalar dan parut ini akan kekal selamanya,

Ucapan maaf,
Maaf aku lalai, leka dgn dunia,
Maaf aku hanyut, hanyut ...ahhh alasan, demi alasan yg membuatkan hati lagi sakit..

Andai ini takdirnya,
Andai ini ketentuan-Nya, Kau berikanlah ku kekuatan, aku redha,
Mungkin kebahgiaanku bukan lagi disini, yang pasti akan ku nanti di akhirat kelak..

Doa dan takwa ku harapkan,
Apa yg ku pinta,
Agar dirinya berubah, andai bukan utk diriku, tp utk anak2nya..

Aminn ��

Walk away the pounds with Leslie Sansone - 3 Mile Weight Loss Walk .... Mummy luv it!

Walk away the pounds with Leslie Sansone - 3 Mile Weight Loss Walk

19 Apr 2014 2 miles = 2 miles
20 Apr 2014 3 miles = 5 miles
21 Apr 2014 3 miles = 8 miles + zumba  latin + 2 cups greentea
22 Apr 2014 1 mile = 9 miles

30 Apr 2014 5 miles = 14 miles + 2 glass papaya juices

01 May 2014 1 mile = 15 miles 

02 May 2014 2 miles = 17 miles (i luv this 2 miles workout, check it out!)

Mummy so impressed, kids!!

Muhammad Haikal Hakimi
Mummy asked him to take eng book that i bought him n do some exercises...eventhough with my nose like this i still asked the kids to do their exercises..mmy really mean right?hehe..slalunya i show him one n the rest he will have do it by himself...tp mmy tgk soalan mcm susah as he need to arrange the words to make a sentences...tgh sibuk amik hanis dgn selambanya dia buat sendiri...am so impressed tp mmy xtunjuk..tq Allah for giving me such a clever boy...

Jom cuba..i prefer the baking soda..

hehe...

NO mood..:|

20/7/2013 Saturday / 11 Ramadan

Arini apoinmen @TMC, hmm..planningnya pastu nak cari kasut raya mmy n bdak2 but end up somethin happen n I decided not to go..balik rumah tido and do nothing, another unhappy n unproductive wiken.. malas nak kemas rumah, malas nak basuh baju sek haikal, malas nak mop walau lantai dh nmpak kotor, malas nak sapu walau rmbut gugur sana sini, malas nak lipat baju walau bj dah menggunung..malas,malas,malas..even nak bebuka posa kat lua pon I dont have the eager to go..I am just tired on doing the same thing every wiken, ngasuh anak2, kemas rumah tp bila nak kua xde sapa nak layan i..if only I could manage to bring along all d kids by myself, hmm..

Saba mmy Saba..#hariyangsedih

My cutie Hanis Carmiella

20/7/2013
Hanis arini baru setahun empat but amazingly harini dia buat mmy tergamam..

Pagi around 630 cmtu dia kejut mmy tarik2 tgn tepuk pipi pastu tepuk bontot..meaning she trying to say 'i poopoo'.. Hah!! Clevernyaaaa..agaknya xselesa pampers berat ngn taik ngn air kencing sama kot..haha..

Petang, dia makan Maggie goreng dlm bekas dah abis dgn selambanya dia berjalan ke dapur, gengjat Cuba nk masukkan bekas makan n sudu td Kat sinki..n I wasss..haaa, celvernya dia..dia senyum smbil jln senget cm ketam.
Haha...

Syukur alhamdullillah mmy ada anak sebijak Hanis just like her big sister,Hanna..

Well done sayang, mmy proud of u..u really make me shocked! Not once but twice..

New born in the house!

Alhamdullilah, syukur atas segala nikmat yg Engkau berikan, ya Allah...amin..syukur, sangat-sangat...

Dekat 3 tahun bersabar ngn bekas kereta, Kali ni daddy xtahan lagi...dear naza, u hav to go, too many pains that u hav brought us n its time for u to leave; mmy hav no say at all..

Hoping to giv birth for another H (Honda) hihi, but ddy choose Toyota instead...ok, i don mind, as long bole bw budak2 jln like old days..mmy dh cukup happy...syukur alhamdullillah...

Haikal hanna happy terjerit2 kete baru..haha...no more obstacles utk pegi berjalan kan mummy..haha..harapnya tiada lagi kekusutan yg akan kete ni beri sbb cukuplah smpai disitu saja..haha..

Kids happy, i am happy, Thank you daddy, we love you so much!

Or can i say this is my early birthday gift, maybe..hihi...counting days 270513...

Chickenpox oh chickenpox

Why now? huhu....
Hans kena chickenpox plak, baru igat nak berehat-rehat dah jadi cmni plak...mmy takut jangkit kat semo orang sbb semua belum pernah kena...
Hanis n hanna dah menunjukkan ciri2 nak kena..bdn dah panas...
Ya Allah, jauhilah anak2ku Dr pernyakit2 yg merbahaya ni..amin..huhu..
Stress xtahu nak ckp mcmana, yg pasti mmy perlu kuat dalam mengatasinya #bestrongsupermoms...

Dady demam panas, so he cant help much..kesian dia..hopefully ddy recover soon. Mmy rase dia kena quit vapor-ing for a while smpai betul2 pulih..kebelakangan ni asyik kena demam panas ja...dh baik kena lagi, Dan lagi..
Ya Allah ko bukailah hatinya agar berhenti merokok n menghisap perkara2 yg memudaratkan dirinya sendiri, aminnn...

Gambar dibwh is from my instagrm on Hans chickenpox, huhu..

Love - mummy 5/5/13 02.40pagi

Sadness...

Ikut hati nak buat makan budak2..tapi kerana kata2 sesetengah pihak yang cakap lebih kurang membuatkan hati ini bertambah sedih.

Sedih..macam Kena hina sedebuk kat muka..
Sakit..lebih Sakit dari Sakit operate hidung ni..
Kalau mmy nak masak main2 baik i just tido rehatkan minda..
I just dont get it..
Why i felt i am not being appreciated at all?
Tak ade belas kasihan pon yg mmy minta..even Sakit macamana pon i just tahan..n keep to myself..tak dilayan macam org Sakit pon mmy diam je..tp...kenapa perlu nak sakitkan hati ini?

2nd day at the hospital..

Nampak hidung micheal Jackson to be..hadoiiiii sakitnyaaaaa..saba mmy saba..my nose surgery..

Tudung pink tugu nak discharge..lama giler siap tido-bgn-tido-bgn xsetel2 ,end up kul530 br kua...
The white thing inside my nose are the plactic nose bone they put temporary..30/4 ni p bw kua..xleh imagine mcm mana cara dorg nak buka menda tu nanti...adoiiii..how many times do i hav to go through this..i am in pains..

Hanya tuhan yg tahu betapa penat-sakit-letih mghadapi dugaan ni..b strong mmy..u can do this..dgn anak2 cirit..semo kecik2 lagi..am hoping my kids will read this one day n know that mmy will do everythg for u..sampai ke kudrat terakhir la org kata...dramatic sgt kannnn anak-anak..haha..

Actually mmy letih..but i cannot rest..pk baju haikal yg xberbasuh..bj putih cuci tgn..bsuh mesin mmg xkua..gosok bj skul haikal..igat nak masak kurma nanti kat dia, he luv it...macam2..haihhhh can u just think about ur health first???get a rest beb! (bercakap utk diri sendiri)

Mmy admitted 21/4/13

Time mmy admitted before the surgery the nex morning..Huhu..c my hanis, how small she turned to be..sbb cirit n muntah..on that sunday dia dah recovered dah sikit..alhamdullillah..

Hoping everythg turn out well....insyallah..

Hans plak cirit..

April is really not a good month for me this year...
Huhu..start last night Hans cirit..kesian dia dok tunjuk perut sakit..so harini dia xpegi skul teman mmy yg sakit ni kat rumah..mmy takut nanti berjagkit plak kat kwn2 yg lain..even when i am sick i hav to deal with all this..kids are my priority..regardless i btul2 xlarat br hantar g nurseri..
Life as a mom really though..tambah2 yg xde helper, Huhu..

Be strong..u know u can do it..

Lots of love..mmy 25/4/13

Pictures hanis time cirit n muntah-muntah

Pity my hanis..first time kena cirit birit n muntah2..i remember last year time haikal hanna Hans straight 3-3 skali serentak kena cirit birit n selsema..i could not recall whether i did blog about that..Tp mmg penat giler...ulang-alik toilet..do the laundry..last2 baldi letak tepi bdk2 so that x truk sgt nak cuci mop sbb muntah...this time hanis yg kena..dgn i need to do my nose surgery..admitted day on sunday night..luckily she recovered on that day..Tp bdn memang susut giler...

Hanis 4th day diarheaa n vomitting

Yesterday end up with 4x vomit, 5x diarheaa..

Today br pg td sekali dia berak..but seem getting well..muntah blom lagi..just early morning at 4am just now dia muntah Kua air sbb minum glukos..

Kesian dia..mlm ni mmy kena admit coz esok ade nose surgery..hopefully she recovered by then..huhu..harapnya mlm ni ddy xtido mati la..klu x Kesian dia nangis sorang2 mlm2..

Negativity - pls go away..

Negative minds..
Negative behaviour..
Negative feeling..

Marah . Sedih. Geram.
Adalah perasaan mmy harini..

Penat. Letih. Tension. Kusut.
Mgkin ini penyebab negativity Ni membuak2 di dlm hati ini..

Ya Allah..berikan aku kesabaran, kekuatan dlm apa jua dugaan yg engkau berikan..

Hanya masa mengubat segalanya.

I am a woman.
I am strong.
I am tired.

Hanis masih cirit n Muntah2...

Hari pertama ..Muntah 15x cirit 10x
Hari kedua ..Muntah 2x cirit 8x
Hari ketiga.. Muntah 3x cirit 1x

Mmy exhausted...huhu..mcm kena cari nyawa nak jaga Hanis..dgn meragamnya..nak dukung..tido pon bdukung..ltk je nangis..Penat..baDan Hanis pon dh susut..pls b well tomorrow Hanis..klu x mcm mana mmy nak tigal awak kat nurseri Sbb mmy ade nose surgery ari isnin...huhu..i have to b strong for d kids!

Hanis oh Hanis

18/4/2013
Hanis demam batuk selsema cirit Muntah..package!!!!
i am so tired..hari ini saja Muntah Dekat 15Kali cirit 10Kali...oh my god..mcm mana la mmy nak operate migu dpn...
Mmy takut jgkit kat haikal Hans Hanna plak...
Ya Allah ya tuhanku ko berilah kekuatan kepadaku..ya Allah

Super mom!

To all woman that taking care ur child by urself without d help of other..u have my salute!..

How hard it was,
How tired u are,
How sick u were,
We will still did it for d kids..
May they grown up n appreciate us more, like wat we hav did to them...