Sadness...

Ikut hati nak buat makan budak2..tapi kerana kata2 sesetengah pihak yang cakap lebih kurang membuatkan hati ini bertambah sedih.

Sedih..macam Kena hina sedebuk kat muka..
Sakit..lebih Sakit dari Sakit operate hidung ni..
Kalau mmy nak masak main2 baik i just tido rehatkan minda..
I just dont get it..
Why i felt i am not being appreciated at all?
Tak ade belas kasihan pon yg mmy minta..even Sakit macamana pon i just tahan..n keep to myself..tak dilayan macam org Sakit pon mmy diam je..tp...kenapa perlu nak sakitkan hati ini?

2nd day at the hospital..

Nampak hidung micheal Jackson to be..hadoiiiii sakitnyaaaaa..saba mmy saba..my nose surgery..

Tudung pink tugu nak discharge..lama giler siap tido-bgn-tido-bgn xsetel2 ,end up kul530 br kua...
The white thing inside my nose are the plactic nose bone they put temporary..30/4 ni p bw kua..xleh imagine mcm mana cara dorg nak buka menda tu nanti...adoiiii..how many times do i hav to go through this..i am in pains..

Hanya tuhan yg tahu betapa penat-sakit-letih mghadapi dugaan ni..b strong mmy..u can do this..dgn anak2 cirit..semo kecik2 lagi..am hoping my kids will read this one day n know that mmy will do everythg for u..sampai ke kudrat terakhir la org kata...dramatic sgt kannnn anak-anak..haha..

Actually mmy letih..but i cannot rest..pk baju haikal yg xberbasuh..bj putih cuci tgn..bsuh mesin mmg xkua..gosok bj skul haikal..igat nak masak kurma nanti kat dia, he luv it...macam2..haihhhh can u just think about ur health first???get a rest beb! (bercakap utk diri sendiri)

Mmy admitted 21/4/13

Time mmy admitted before the surgery the nex morning..Huhu..c my hanis, how small she turned to be..sbb cirit n muntah..on that sunday dia dah recovered dah sikit..alhamdullillah..

Hoping everythg turn out well....insyallah..

Hans plak cirit..

April is really not a good month for me this year...
Huhu..start last night Hans cirit..kesian dia dok tunjuk perut sakit..so harini dia xpegi skul teman mmy yg sakit ni kat rumah..mmy takut nanti berjagkit plak kat kwn2 yg lain..even when i am sick i hav to deal with all this..kids are my priority..regardless i btul2 xlarat br hantar g nurseri..
Life as a mom really though..tambah2 yg xde helper, Huhu..

Be strong..u know u can do it..

Lots of love..mmy 25/4/13

Pictures hanis time cirit n muntah-muntah

Pity my hanis..first time kena cirit birit n muntah2..i remember last year time haikal hanna Hans straight 3-3 skali serentak kena cirit birit n selsema..i could not recall whether i did blog about that..Tp mmg penat giler...ulang-alik toilet..do the laundry..last2 baldi letak tepi bdk2 so that x truk sgt nak cuci mop sbb muntah...this time hanis yg kena..dgn i need to do my nose surgery..admitted day on sunday night..luckily she recovered on that day..Tp bdn memang susut giler...

Hanis 4th day diarheaa n vomitting

Yesterday end up with 4x vomit, 5x diarheaa..

Today br pg td sekali dia berak..but seem getting well..muntah blom lagi..just early morning at 4am just now dia muntah Kua air sbb minum glukos..

Kesian dia..mlm ni mmy kena admit coz esok ade nose surgery..hopefully she recovered by then..huhu..harapnya mlm ni ddy xtido mati la..klu x Kesian dia nangis sorang2 mlm2..

Negativity - pls go away..

Negative minds..
Negative behaviour..
Negative feeling..

Marah . Sedih. Geram.
Adalah perasaan mmy harini..

Penat. Letih. Tension. Kusut.
Mgkin ini penyebab negativity Ni membuak2 di dlm hati ini..

Ya Allah..berikan aku kesabaran, kekuatan dlm apa jua dugaan yg engkau berikan..

Hanya masa mengubat segalanya.

I am a woman.
I am strong.
I am tired.

Hanis masih cirit n Muntah2...

Hari pertama ..Muntah 15x cirit 10x
Hari kedua ..Muntah 2x cirit 8x
Hari ketiga.. Muntah 3x cirit 1x

Mmy exhausted...huhu..mcm kena cari nyawa nak jaga Hanis..dgn meragamnya..nak dukung..tido pon bdukung..ltk je nangis..Penat..baDan Hanis pon dh susut..pls b well tomorrow Hanis..klu x mcm mana mmy nak tigal awak kat nurseri Sbb mmy ade nose surgery ari isnin...huhu..i have to b strong for d kids!

Hanis oh Hanis

18/4/2013
Hanis demam batuk selsema cirit Muntah..package!!!!
i am so tired..hari ini saja Muntah Dekat 15Kali cirit 10Kali...oh my god..mcm mana la mmy nak operate migu dpn...
Mmy takut jgkit kat haikal Hans Hanna plak...
Ya Allah ya tuhanku ko berilah kekuatan kepadaku..ya Allah

Super mom!

To all woman that taking care ur child by urself without d help of other..u have my salute!..

How hard it was,
How tired u are,
How sick u were,
We will still did it for d kids..
May they grown up n appreciate us more, like wat we hav did to them...

My 2 angels!

06042013 Saturday

Me with my 2 angels, mummy nak tumpang bole??hehe..
lagi 2 dah pegi kayuh jauh2 dgn kawan2..haha..

Oleh sebab i am fat now..kita snap gamba muka je..hikhikhik.. :p

Hans : peace yo!haha

06042013 Saturday

Hans lps dapat beskal baru..nk tgkp gamba dok try nak buat peace..haha..lawak..

Kasih abg membawa ke syurga..sbb Hans sayang Hanis mmy beli beskal yg dia bole bw adik dia sama...dlm car siap kiss pipi mmy sbg tanda tq dia kat mmy..u r so sweet syg..diff from others..suka men sorg2, xbyk ckp, manja, syg adik, pendiam like ddy..an observer maybe..n that's my Hans!

Our new ride...

Thank you mmy...bila hanna dapat bicycle baru dia semalam...pastu siap suruh mmy jawab, welcome hanna..haha..lawak...dia ckp dia jawab...
Minggu lepas bicycle lama dia patah...Dr zmn dia kecik lagi bicycle tu..mmg dh byk berjasa..pastu bila haikal n anak2 jiran main beskal dia tengok je..xmampu nak kejar sbb beskal dia jenis tricycle...then i decided to buy them a new one..happy bukan kepalang...bangun pagi2 hari ni dah ilang main beskal kat luar...when u happy, i am happy too..mmy luv u..

Hanis dh pandai mkn sendiri..

Genap setahun..dia dah pandai macam2..just like her sis/mentor hanna..haha..these girls are so fasttttt...fast n furious like mmy..somethin i couldnt recall time2 masa dorang kecik..as lookin at it now they r very independent!

Bfast.lunch.tea. Hanis makan sendiri. Pintal kecik2 nuget ke, roti ker..then put her at her bb chair, she will take her own sweet time finish it all..siap tambah berkali2..haha..as i do it my way katanya..haha..
Tgk gamba haikal ngn Hans dok curi sikit2 makanan dia..haha..sweet memories to remember until i die..luv my kids so much..

Hans demam

My Hans demam lagi..this time abis naik rashes..again sbb antibiotic xsesuai n ddy pon lupa ckp doc yg dia alergy to penicilin..sekali makan terus naik merah kat tapak tgn n kaki dia..pity him tergaru2..

Monday i took leave sbb nak jaga dia n Amik kesempatan gunting rmbut sekali..panassss...

Komen from ddy..u cut ur hair again?!
Yes i said..
Can see yg dia xberapa nk suka..huhu..